God Continues To Amaze me!

Today I didnt have brooke so I did a bunch of things that i cant do when i do have her. Well after driving around on my gas light all morning i was gonna stop for gas but i decided not to cuz i wanted to get home and shower cuz i was all gross from working out. So I went home showered and got ready to go back out pick up my picture i dropped off then get some gas in my car. So I was at the gas station, which by the way i was going to put off until the morning before church because I dont like filling up my tank for some odd reason. Well I get out to go prepay and this guy(and his friend) that was standing in front of the gas station he was prolly 22 or 23, was checking me out the whole time walking in and walking out. I was thinking what is with this guy!? He asked me a question on my way back to the gas pump. I have a tattoo on my lower back and i guess u could see alittle of it sticking out of my shirt so he asked me what it was. I told him it was a butterfly and i walked away thinking nothing of it. As I am pumping my gas that guy who asked me about my tattoo's friend came over to me and layed a line on me that I*m guessing he thought i had never heard before. "Has anyone told you today how beautiful you are?" Lame huh? lol Well i replied with a "yea of course" lol joking with him. Anyways he started talking to me and tryin to sell me magazines. He started asking me what i like to do.....do i like to party?.....do i like to go clubbing?? I told how I used to do all that but I have cleaned up my life and how i enjoy to go to church. Well it turns out he and i have similar interests and so it was ez for both of us to talk and i really started to tell him about my past and where im at now and how God has really changed my life! I invited him to church and told him a little about whats going to be going on like water baptism and a lunchion and that Pastor Joe is going to be ordaning other ministers. He actually seemed really interested! He's leaving town 2morro cuz with his job he travels but I*m really hoping and praying that he comes to Empower!!

I just couldnt believe the opprotunity God gave me! 2 times in 1 week! God showed me Andrew's courage and strength when he witnessed to those "thugs" the other day and he gave me the same courage to witness to this guy at the gas station. Its like i hve been talking to God about my faith and he shows me that by my faith in him he provides! He surely provided when i asked him to show me how to be a witness so i can tell others about Him! God is soooo Good!

Hunger Pains

The other day I was so hungry that when I went home I made a big meal of eggs, toast, waffles, bacon, milk and oj!! Needless to say it really hit the spot! Some times I feel like theres a hunger in my spiritual stomach! Thats when i listen to worship music or some preaching and teaching, read a book, or get into His word so i can fill my hunger! God has just been giving me a feast to eat from lately too! I have been so blessed its awesome! He is just doin some great things with my life recently. It seems like everytime I call on Him and ask Him about a certain topic He shows it to me almost immediately! I've really been talkin to God about my faith and how I*ve been feelin like my faith meter was low and how i really need Him to show me and teach me about faith; it seems like everytime i turn on the radio or go to church or read a book or w/e its about faith! He has been opening my eyes to so many things and its awesome! God is showing me first hand that if i ask and believe He will show me the answer and have faith, He does every time, it never fails.

I was just askin God the other day about being a witness to others and how i want him to show me how to do that. Well it never fails that He gave me the opprotunity to see someone do that! Tonight I was over at the Barlow's and after dinner the kids(minus sarah) nancy and i went to the park for a little bit. There were some guys there sitting at the park bench drinkin and doing some things that werent so good, when we were about to leave Andrew came up to us and said he wanted to go talk to those guys about Jesus.(let me tell you, these guys were ghetto/ganster kinda guys so they were kinda scary!) So Nancy started to walk home with the kids and Andrew went over to talk to these guys. I wasnt gonna go over and talk with him bit i felt i should be there with him and atleast be prayin in the spirit. I started to walk over to talk with him to the guys but i stopped and looked at Andrew and i could see this shield in front of him! I just stood there for a minute staring at it! It was clear kinda like a bubble and it went from the top of his head down to the ground! It was the coolest thing ever! Well we talked to these guys for a while, well Andrew talked to them for a while. lol It was awesome tho for me to see him have the guts to walk up and talk to these guys about his faith in Jesus! I mean how cool is that!? And I was just talkin to God about how I want to share my faith with others but I needed him to show me how! God is so good!

Also the other night Sarah, Andrew, Natalie, Josh, and I went to the Faith Confrence at Living Word to hear Jesse Duplantis speak and boy oh boy was I blessed! His message was great! Tomorrow night Creflo Dollar will be speaking and i encourage you to go and get blessed! Have a great weekend!

What Am I Gonna Do About It?!?

I Love watching my dad play with brooke! hehe! It is such a blessing having a great realtionship with my dad! I was worried that brooke would never really know her dad b/c when i was pregnant Aaron(brookes dad) wasnt around. I know now that Aaron loves Brooke very much and really enjoys spending time with her and he continues to put my worries and fears behind me as he asks more and more to spend time with Brooke on a regular basis! Although we are still goin through all the court stuff Aaron and I have patched up our relationship and we talk to eachother like the adults that we are. He and I will never be 2gether again and I am totally ok with that b/c i know God has an AMAZING husband already picked out for me! I have also made the decision to not date anymore so I can save my whole heart for my husband. This also helps me to keep my heart where it belongs(with God) for the time being that way when it comes time to give my heart to my husband i will have all of it to give and not just broken pieces left for him. I*m finding that seeking council through friends, listening to preachings and teachings and also getting into God*s word has given me a totally new outlook on dating and relationships! In the past I was always so worried about guys liking me and thinking i was beautiful but I have come to realize that its not about my outward beauty its about the beauty on the inside. Who cares if guys see you when youre not wearing make up or your hair isnt exactly how you want it or if youre not wearing your perfect outfit b/c none of that matters. Your husband is gonna love you for your inside and not your outside(your beauty on the outside is just a bonus, its icing on the cake!). Another thing I*m working on is MODESTY(dun dun dun!!!) lol. I never really understood why girls need to dress appropriatly. Now i do! Girls/Women, we need to help the boys/men from sinning with thier eyes! If we dress "sexy" and have our you know whats hanging out all the time that makes the guys have certain temptations, we cause them to think bad thoughts! I never knew that until someone pointed it out to me! So what am I gonna do about it?! I*m gonna do the right thing and help myself and my brothers in Christ by dressing modestly! Now that doesnt mean you cant look nice either! There are plenty of ways to dress modestly and look beautiful!

Oh and I have to share this with you!!! God is so good! I have really been getting into the word and listening to alot of preaching on Faith b/c in my life i feel like my Faith meter is runnin kinda low. So I have been making Faith lists of things I need in life just little things like essecials(mascara, eyeliner, toothpast, things im running real low on). Neways I*m running low on cash lately since i dont work that much and Aaron doesnt pay child support anymore so I*m REALLY tryin to save! Well last night I looked in the fridge and there was no milk left to give brooke a bottle and no one was home so Brooke and I ran to the store to get some milk. Now heres the thing, I*m down to my last $20 and as I*m walking into the store I told myself no wandering eyes! Don*t be tempted to buy other things!! I have a tendency to wanna spend my money when I shouldnt. So I put Brooke in the cart went to the back of the store got her milk(which was on sale Praise God!) and as I*m walking back to the front to pay i just so happened to go through the make up isle and i wanted so bad to get my eye liner and mascara but I said no to temptation! I was so proud of myself! Ok well when I went to the register and he rang up the milk and i used my Domnicks card to get the sale price the card didnt go though so i used it again and the guy goes ok now it works....guess what the total price of the milk was?! 53cents!!!!
Can you believe that!? I was like what?!?!? That cant be right! It was right! I got some kind of discount for something!!!! I believe God gave me that discount! I didnt have a wandering eye and i didnt submit to temptation and God saw that and blessed me!!! Praise God! Thats all i could say was Praise God! God is so good! Well anyways just thought I would share that!! Have a blessed week!

My First Day @ Work!! I Love My Boss!! Heheh!

Ok so yesturday was my first day of work @ Sarah Anne Photography!!! YEAAAAA!! It was so much fun! I got alot done too and Sarah and I have such big plans for the office!!! Lets just say I*m totally pumped about my new job!!! Lol So after work Natalie Sarah and I went shopping @ OakBrook Mall and had a BLAST! We went to this Thai resturaunt and had the YUMMIEST food ever!!(DJ we got ur favorite! lol) After we ate we shopped for a little bit then went onto the computer store to play photobooth!! That was fun even tho the store smelled like sweaty men! lol. The whole shopping trip was us just laughing and being silly the whole time. Thats one of my fav things to do is be silly! When shopping was over we went back to the house to do a few things and wait for Andrew so he could come with us to Lake Ellyn! While we waited for Andrew to get home me and Natalie got sneaky and went on his myspace b/c she knows his password and put a really scary pic or me and nat as his primary pic!!!! Andrew didnt like that very much tho ahaha. Lake Ellyn was great tho! It was very peaceful!! And we all linked arms and started skipping and singing "We*re off to see the wizard the wonderful wizard of Oz" hahah we are such dorks but its ok! lol Neways I made a **slideshow** so go check it out!!!